My So-Called Yoga Life

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    • It’s Not You, It’s Your Nervous System

      Posted at 8:13 pm by Lisa K, on October 13, 2025

      Dear Diary,

      I was reading some things about the nervous system recently. But before I get into the insights that touch on our perceptions of reality and mental health, I want to trace back a web of connections I’ve been forming over the years, links that began to take shape through my ongoing journey with yoga.

      So I’ve noticed that over the last few years, in mainstream medicine, there has been more of a focus on the vagus nerve and regulating the nervous system through vagal toning. It’s sort of a *buzz* topic.  I read Eddie Stern’s One Simple Thing, a few books and articles on quantum theory, and some psychology and neuroscience papers and blogs about vagal tone over the years. 

      Being in the dental field, I had some prior knowledge about the 10th cranial nerve known as the vagus nerve and that it innervates many areas of the body from the brain to the abdomen. Most importantly for my entry today, that it is part of the autonomic nervous system and it plays a role in the stimulation of the parasympathetic nervous system which is the part that calms us. 

      Later, when I did my first Ashtanga based training, there was an immense focus on pranayama, the fourth limb of yoga, which is breath work to control life force energy which in turn can control the mind and our emotional state. There is also a focus in Ashtanga yoga asana and the effects it has on the nervous system. The primary series in Ashtanga is the Yoga Chikitsa, which is designed to purify and detoxify the body to prepare for the second series which is Nadi Shodana or nerve cleansing that focuses on the spine with deep backbends and twisting postures. These practices are meant to prepare the body for moving into the deeper states of meditation and consciousness.

      So why am I writing about all of this? 

      Well, I was watching a content creator who was wearing a towel on her head and a face mask talk about quantum physics and even though this lady was using a face roller as she was getting ready for bed, she said some things that really resonated with me. What she said was, that in her studies she has learned: When your nervous system believes something, the universe arranges itself to match it. We do not experience the world, we experience our nervous system. This is why two people who have the experience, often have a different version of what happened or their own story.

      Personally, I think this is a very interesting way to look at how reality is shaped. That it is not some concrete observation we have, rather it is guided by our emotional state and the condition of our nervous system. The different energies and frequencies that we emit have some sort of influence on the environment and what we notice or pay attention to is sort of filtered by what we can sense at a given moment.  I mean I think most people would agree that they have felt “vibes” or energy from others. Some people might say this is all just a load of garbage, but I heard and felt what she was saying.

      All of these pieces of information have been circulating around in my mind, and it seems to be resonating with me because it is an entirely different perspective to help me understand myself, especially times when I have some emotional and anxiety overwhelm. When these things happen, I think it’s pretty natural to think about what could be triggering the “episodes” and also to think about how to manage them, when they come up. 

      I began to think about how I view the world when I am feeling down. The way I interact with people and the general feelings I have at those times are the same as the rest of my mind, kinda gross. I am viewing the world through my dysregulated nervous system. One of the tools I have spent the most time developing to manage anxiety has been deep breathing and counted breathing. This is a technique for toning the vagus nerve which activates the parasympathetic nervous system and brings that sense of calm to my pumped up nervous system and slows down the emotional spiral I may be heading towards. By no means am I an expert on how to deal with anxiety but I know that over the years, this has helped me. When I am feeling good, my interactions are lighter, more carefree and feel easy and positive. There are no extra messages I feel compelled to read into and I might even feel “dialed in” to the good energy around me.  

      So you see, the perspective this face masked lady shared enlightened my thinking in a way. To see what might be part of the bigger picture in dealing with life and the roller coaster I accidentally get on from time to time makes the whole experience seem a little less solitary and that things may seem worse than they actually are because I need to rebalance myself. What’s more, this is something I can do something about. I find this comforting and while there will likely be times when none of this will matter, if I work on myself with this in mind, I have another valuable way to understand and learn about being a human being. I am grateful for this experience and for this life.

      With love,

      Lisa

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    • Reflections on 2024

      Posted at 4:51 pm by Lisa K, on December 31, 2024


      Dear diary,

      It’s been a few years since I wrote a post for the New Year. The tides of change have visited my little life, so here we are as 2024 draws to a close. You may want to sit down and have a nice tea to enjoy while you read on. I’m going to be completely honest. I have been preparing a  master plan for over a year now for how I will make my life the way I want it to be. 

      How it Started

      A year and a half ago, I took a new full-time position doing a job that really fulfills me. It beckons me to utilize my knowledge and skills, as well as giving me the freedom to call on my creativity to design engaging, real-world activities that align with educational program learning outcomes and goals for the many programs I have worked on.  In this element, it feels like an orchestra playing in perfect time and tune where I can become engrossed in the world of creation. It’s like being in a place where there are endless possibilities and somehow just the right ones come into view at just the right time. 

      How can I explain this better…well my cousin is basically a math genius and she once told me that she could see equations as 3D images in her mind. I was in awe of her description of it as math is not a gift I share with her and I certainly do not see anything that beautiful when I attempt a math problem. It sounded so interesting and wonderful to learn that she had this experience. Now, when I do my work, this memory comes to mind because I think I understand the meaning and depth of her gift when I do this work. I feel the beauty of it too. I also love the team I work with and was super excited when my work bestie recommended me for the job. When we work together, we feel this magic like we are adding to an artful masterpiece. It’s super cool. It has been really busy and I have enjoyed these aspects of it very much. 

      But…

      As time went on, I started having difficulty balancing my life. The way we work on the programs means I am often working more than I should be. I don’t know how other people fully do all the things with this type of a schedule. It’s hard to keep up. I started finding it difficult to make time for my ashtanga yoga practice, be completely invested in what my kids are doing and thoughtfully devoted in my relationship so what I felt compelled to let go of was the time I had for me. Facing the reality of it all, my kids, my husband and my job were my priorities and I couldn’t justify taking the time left I had available to do anything but get the house ready to sell, clean, investigate the real estate market, mortgage options, all the important things to get my big plan in motion. For anyone who has been in the market this past year, they know, it has been a very fragile and unpredictable year.

      Slowly, I started to notice that my anxiety crept back up, I couldn’t sleep property and I could barely wake up in the morning, so I began to feel ragged. I wanted to be 100% for all the things, but this was not a possible reality for me in this worldly dimension. There were not enough hours in the day or energy in my body and mind to keep up with it all. I would cry a lot about how I was failing to be all that I wanted. Without my solitary time, my yoga time – the fundamental balancing force in my life – I was getting spun up and a little bit, out of control. I started having physical manifestations of stress as well so something needed to shift soon.

      I had to keep reminding myself that everything was part of a bigger plan. More freedom – more time for my family, maybe take a vacation and space for me to be completely present for everything. These were the start of it – my big plan. I wanted to reduce my work schedule so I could be present at the capacity that I envisioned so as to soak up every moment in appreciation and enjoyment. 

      Well, so far we made the move and we just went on a vacation, yay! Before the holidays, I gathered the courage to ask for a reduction in hours at work. I was greeted with support and told that this was definitely an option. At the moment, I feel so much gratitude for what I have and where I am going. 

      The end of a year can mean many different things for different people. Honestly, this year has been a real handful. So many obstacles appeared at my most vulnerable times, I wondered if things would work out the way I hoped and planned that they would. It seemed that for every piece I moved on the chess board of life, there would be a skilled and calculated move against me. I was focusing on my goal but not realizing the cascade of potentials that may get in the way. I resolved to be patient and ride it out, though I cried several rivers of tears in the process, it was a game that I would not lose without a fight. 

      On the Other Side

      Now, I am here at the end of 2024. There are still more creases to iron out, but my overall vision is now clearly taking steps in the right direction. The support of my husband to make the time he knows and can so clearly see that I need has helped me to bridge the gap even though he has a busy travel schedule and has had many changes along the way too. My world has changed so much in the last year. I have learned more about resilience through it all and above all things, how to keep working, planning and making actions towards a goal, even when the rewards can’t be realized until it is brought to completion. All of this time, I didn’t stop to reflect, there seemed to be no place for it in all the chaos. 

      The Big Lessons


      Now I can see how I managed to make it through with such lessons to behold. All the years that I have dedicated to Ashtanga, they have trained my mind, body and soul to trust in myself. That I have the ability to withstand failure and to appreciate the varied measures of growth that will arise. That I am a force of power that can contemplate, feel and persevere through the labyrinth of circumstances and emotions that may try to stifle my will. It has been a very studious learning experience, this past year. I am on my way, and won’t stop until I get there. I feel so much love for everything, some beautiful things, some bittersweet. With each step, feeling gratitude for what I do have has been the greatest gift. It is the grace that may elevate all hearts to feel the deep motivation and love of life that keeps us moving and reaching for our dreams.

      This world isn’t an easy place, suffering is everywhere. It’s all we can do to stay buoyant – to listen, to dream and to find hope will strengthen the heart and amplify the connection to self deep within. As 2024 draws to a close, a new year dawns with the potential for growth of the dreams we are working on, the dreams that we will tackle next and the dreams that we will dream up for the time to come. May 2025 bring you a feeling of hope, strength and faith in yourself, for we all have the power to make our dreams, big or small, come true. Best wishes today and in the coming year ahead.

      Love,

      Lisa xo

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    • Are We Not Unicorns?

      Posted at 5:36 pm by Lisa K, on April 8, 2018

      As a young girl, I was absolutely captivated by fantasy creatures, especially the unicorn. A majestic being with a wild and free spirit, found in the enchanted forests around the mythical world. With their sparkling horn as the vortex of their magnificent, unrestrained power and purity, their supernatural qualities are noble in nature. The movie Legend is in my top 5 all time favourites. I just love watching the unicorns gallop through the river as Tom Cruise observed their incredible beauty from behind a bush nearby.

      Unicorns are meant to be free and cannot be captured or touched. If this should happen and their horn is removed, they will die. Along with it, all the fair enchantment of their magic will fall and become evil. When I think about what that means, I often compare it to the human desire to tame and become master to wild creatures of this world and their own individual gifts. The desire to capture that which is forbidden brings me back to the very nature of what it means to be human, right down to the story Adam and Eve. To want something that is not to be taken seems to be part of the human condition and has led our species down some slippery slopes in this world. Why is it that we possess this inclination? Why do we allow it to control our behaviours? While I don’t have the answer to these questions, I do have some personal speculations on what they mean.

      To me, the unicorn symbolizes the true nature of our own spirit. The fact that we have become unable to see that we already have everything we need inside ourselves and always have makes me feel melancholy. In the very first post I wrote for this blog, I referenced a native creation story about how the human spirit has been hidden within us so that we would not find it until we are prepared to realize our oneness with the divine. The unicorn is a divine being and we are divine beings too. The problem is that we place value on things that we admire or wish to take them for ourselves. Our world is built on the hierarchy of a system of money and power that dictates the value of something as a prize to own, not as an experience of life or a way of existing. That has long been forgotten by the power of greed and social stature in society. These are generalizations as I dare not speak for all of mankind, but they are marked patterns in the operation of the many civilizations of this world, without doubt.

      The rush of wonder and admiration I feel when I watch those unicorns running in the forest, that feeling is out of respect and love for the power of the untamed and the unbound. For the confident and carefree magical beauty of their very existence. We are born into this life with the understanding of our unicorn nature, that knowing. I remember feeling like I could do anything I wanted if I tried hard enough, if I let my creative energy flow, as a child. I would spend hours dancing, making artwork, creating in my own way and felt limitless. I believe we all wish to feel that way our whole lives, to be confident in our capabilities and at the same time know that their worth is really in the experience of creating them. That this experience itself is so powerful in its realization of the interconnected fiery light that joins each of us to one another and then allows it to dance in our passions of life’s purpose.

      The greatest artists in the world did not spend painstaking hours on their craft merely for recognition or how others would receive their creations, it was for the process of it. Because they loved it. Fearlessly following the effulgent light burning so deeply into the essence of who they knew they were. At first, they didn’t even know or care if what they created was loved by others at all. We observe people like this with awe and admiration, as if we lack their capability. In reality we need to make a space inside to rediscover that light within and let it guide us on our way.

      We are all unicorns! Isn’t that totally awesome! To think when I was little, I used to make a little horn and decorate it with sparkles so a I could run around with it taped to my forehead, lol! I wanted to be one, and now I am working on rediscovering that I already am!

      Well my beautiful readers, that is my little philosophical musing for today. Wishing you all the very best week coming! Keep smiling😄

      Much Love,

      Lisa xo

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    • The Yoga of Trees: A creative writing piece inspired by the word “tree”

      Posted at 5:34 pm by Lisa K, on February 17, 2018

      I thought I would do something a little different as far as writing goes to try and tap more into my creativity. In doing so I thought I would follow the idea of writing based solely on the inspiration of a word. I have seen blogging groups leave threads open like this and the intention is to help stir this creativity. When I started to think about what word to use, I thought I’d open a dictionary and find one randomly but then suddenly the word tree came into my mind and I went with it…

      Tree

      Leaves fall off randomly as the wind whips the tree’s branches this way and that. The branches give way with ease, flexibly moving with each gust. With each thrash, seeds fly off and if they are lucky enough to land on the forest floor in a spot where rays of the sunlight shine down to, they will likely germinate and grow. It is purely by chance that they are lucky enough to come into existence and once that miracle occurs, and they manage not to be trampled by animals or eaten, they will be around for a long time. They live for centuries and see many events come to pass. Passively listening and moving slowly as they grow towards the light of the sun. Their rings demonstrate the obstacles they must overcome in times of drought or cold. They wear these as insignificantly as the rings that show their strongest and most plentiful years of growth. Like an iceberg, that which we can see above in all its glory is only but a mere glimpse of the immensity and complexity of what lies below. In silence, they quietly breath in the carbon dioxide from the air and in return provide life giving oxygen for the inhabitants of the earth. They are the custodians of our existence, the artists who paint the beautiful blue hues in our atmosphere and are literally responsible for each and every breath that we take.

      The trees are akin to our inner seer, our divinity or force of life. We are born with all of the wisdom required to exist in this form, but are without faculties to grasp it and revel in its blissful glory. Our light is forever an observer, waiting for us to realize and bring to fruition the lessons we have to learn within our lives from our biological existence to our transcendental essence itself. The beauty and grace of our inner light is only revealed in tiny drops and when we least expect it. It is those times when we feel the sudden burst of attuned perfection of alignment in our body mind and soul and they vanish as uncontrollably as they may appear. We unknowingly tap into that sacred part of ourselves at times when we are working within our dharma or true purpose in this world. This is what may drive some to become more trained in the learning of how to witness and in essence become yoga.  This is the enmeshed existence of life with an acute awareness of our own divinity, something that is to be experienced only by a tiny fraction of the devoted monks and practitioners of spiritual awakenings.

      Like the trees, we all wish to know our purpose and give of it freely without attachment. We are jaded by this attachment which is what leads us to lose touch with our effulgent light, to be drawn into the dark. To feel anger, fear, scorn, hatred and jealousy and that is what draws out the evil that will inevitably hold us back forever.

      By~ Lisa Michelle♥️

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    • 5 Tips to Motivate the Home Practitioner in the Winter

      Posted at 3:34 am by Lisa K, on January 16, 2018

      So over the last month we have had temperatures as low as -30 degrees and even though the heat is on in the house and I have a space heater, it is difficult to get my yoga practice going in the morning sometimes. I feel almost like the fact that my life has called for some evening practice times has been a godsend even though I am really more of a morning person, lol.  So I thought it would be a good idea to share some of my tried, tested and true motivation methods to get on that mat in the early morning during the dark and cold winter months.

      1. When you open your eyes in the morning, drink a large glass of water as soon as your alarm goes off to make you wake up! I keep my water bottle beside my bed so that I pop up and drink it when I turn the alarm off. This helps to get me up, get my digestive tract moving and overall the habit of doing this helps prime me for getting out of bed. It helps that in the next 15 mins, I will need to use the washroom as well, lol!
      2. Once you are up, turn the space heater on in your practice space right away so it can start to warm things up from the get-go. I always find that when I do this, I feel happy to step on my mat next to the extra warmth already going. It’s akin to having a car-starter for that morning drive! It just makes things that little bit easier, which actually goes a long way!
      3. Wear some extra layers that you can peel off as you warm up. I like to practice in leggings and a sports bra. It isn’t fun to put this on early on a cold day and get to practicing yoga. I wear a long sleeve top and after my surya namaskara, I am usually ready to take it off. Wear whatever makes you feel comfy and able to move without feeling unnecessarily chilly. Even with my space heater, I am acutely aware of the temperature difference as it occilates from left to right.
      4. When it’s cold, sometimes I like to try and talk myself out of doing my whole practice. This is actually okay because as you warm up, your mind will change because you will feel that beautiful feeling of your muscles waking up and lengthening as you warm and strengthen. This is one of my favourite parts of practice. As a home practitioner, it is commonplace to have this internal dialogue of doing just standing poses or primary series for me. I relish the end of my practice when I finish the entire thing and actually enjoy doing some of my more difficult poses because I am more aware of how much more fluid and connected I feel as I practice compared to before I started or how I would feel if I didn’t practice. In fact, the memory of this endorphin high is what helps motivate me each time I feel like giving in to my desire to stay in bed. Over time, it has become a serious motivator so that now I am able to get up at 4:30am when I need to start home practice as early as 5am so that I can fit it into my day.

      People have gasped in disbelief when I tell them the schedule I have and even more so at the schedule I had before I had children. As a dental hygienist working down in the city, I would have to get up at 3:20am to fit practice in at my shala before heading to work for 7:30am. I know it sounds crazy, but when something changes your life the way practicing yoga has changed mine, it is really a no brainer. The priming of practicing at early times and the feeling in my body after each time I practice continues to serve as a serious motivator for me to continue. Don’t get me wrong, there are still days where I have had REAL trouble, but knowing that my feeling will return if I push through has allowed me to get past the initial inertia many times.

      5. My final tip is to plan for a delicious cup of coffee and breakfast after practice. I often think about what I will do and how I will feel after I am done to motivate me to get out of bed when it is most difficult. I also remind myself how upset I will be if I do give in and stay in bed. There is just too much to gain from getting up and doing my asana and breathing through each pose. It really is such a personal time, to connect and feel into me before I spend the day as open to what the day may hold as possible. It is a way to regroup and collect myself, and each time I am able to will myself onto the mat and do my practice is another proof that I am the master of my destiny. It sounds cliche, but I enjoy the ability I have to help myself be my best self each time I am able to do so. I feel confident, I feel strong, I feel capable and most of all, I feel ME. It is what keeps me motivated, sane even. My practice is one thing I can count on, whether it is only standing because my son wakes up or I’m able to do my whole practice. I am there, everyday, contributing to the betterment of my physical, mental and spiritual health. I am my own master. I am the director of what I am capable of doing and it feels fucking awesome.

      So be your master. Kick your butt out of bed for a meditation, a run, yoga, anything that helps you reset yourself and find YOU before you begin your day. It will only bring joy, happiness and confidence and who wouldn’t want that??

      Be your best self, hug yourself and look in the mirror today- smile and tell yourself you are amazing because YOU ARE!!

      Much Love,

      Lisa xo

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    • The Art of Finding Time

      Posted at 5:56 pm by Lisa K, on January 8, 2018

      I have written about becoming flexible in the aspects of the physical body and the mental body. But lately I have been thinking more about how to find time to do the things you love and enjoy them without worrying about fitting them into a busy schedule. The reason that I have become sensitive to this particular topic is because I have had some difficulty recently, fitting in my practice time with all of the festivities of the season. I thoroughly enjoy spending time with those I hold dear, but it doesn’t change the fact that my daily rituals of life are affected. I have become accustomed to doing evening practices and hav even perfected the amount of time needed after eating to ensure they are successful. I have actually grown to appreciate the different aspects that an evening practice can offer such as increased strength and flexibility. I do find that sometimes evening practices are marred by racing thoughts but there are no (for the most part) interruptions from my little babes who are sleeping. I suppose there are pros and cons to any time.   I have practiced in hotel rooms, hotel gyms and in my bedroom over the last couple of weeks. While none of them are my ideal spot, there were benefits in some cases! In one hotel room, there was a gas fireplace and it got really nice and toasty! I most definitely appreciated that with all the frigid temps we’ve been having lately. The gym spot was not as good, with people working out around me and a low ceiling, it was distracting. But I was able to fit it in!! My gym practice was at 8:30pm, so as a natural morning person, some adaptation is required, lol.  What I found a couple of days was that I got half a practice done in the morning and then finished it up in the evening! Seriously, sometimes it’s necessary to become inventive in how to get things done.
      The main point of importance during this time was that, even though I had to be even more mentally flexible with my schedule, I was able to succeed in getting some type of practice in. Sometimes it was just primary series and other days I could fit in my entire 1hr 45 min practice in. More and more, the emphasis has become getting some part of a practice in, rather than how much of it gets done. For me, this has taken time to get used to. I’ve had a few years to slowly get comfortable with the need for my increased necessity for mental flexibility as having children already got those wheels turning!
      It can be demotivating to have to make changes to fit practice in but over time it really becomes a test as to how badly I really want to do something. Yoga is like breathing to me and since I’d like to stay alive, I suppose I will keep on working it in wherever it is possible!! Hope you we’re able to find time to take care of yourself over the holidays.  Looking forward to the regular rhythm of life this week.  All the very  best until next week, be happy, smile and be you💖

      Much Love,

      Lisa Michelle xo

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    • The Havan Fire Ceremony

      Posted at 2:41 am by Lisa K, on November 26, 2017

      A few weeks ago, I had the privilege of joining a Havan Fire Ceremony with our current yoga teacher training group at The Yoga Mat. One of my colleagues is part of the Dhyan Foundation which is a spiritual and charitable organization run solely by volunteers to spread awareness and knowledge of the path of yoga. Teaching many authentic practices involved with yoga, the Havan is a ceremony dedicated to aid the positive forces of creation. As human beings we commence in a Havan for the peace and prosperity of our home and creation as a whole. The ritual has been recorded and it’s practice is sustained in ancient Vedic texts which are important resources involved in forming our understandings of yoga today.

      The Havan is a ritual where all aspects of the ceremony are performed and prepared for with intention. The fire is lit and Sanskrit chants are spoken to create the proper atmosphere for the spiritual intention. There is ghee or clarified butter used as an offering and it crackles the fire during chanting. It is at this time that fragrant medicinal herbs are spread into the fire. These are prepared specially at home prior to the ceremony for the purpose of offering. There is a conch shell blown as a horn before and after the ceremony. The hands are washed to purify before we begin. We sit with crossed legs and palms turned up to accept and allow the positive energy to flow freely around and through the group. The whole process serves as a meditation and a focus on creating a sacred and inclusive space for those involved to really connect with the intention but more importantly, with each other. As I sat and listened to our guide, Chaavi, chant, I could hear the Gayatri Mantra and pieces of other mantra which I have become familiar with through my own path of yoga. The Gayatri is a powerful mantra and is said to mean “May the divine light of the Supreme Being illuminate our intellect, to lead us along a path of righteousness”. It is a powerful mantra which is said to purify the chanter and also the listener, by the Rig Veda.

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      Above: Chaavi performing the Havan for us

      When I went to Thailand to see Paul Dallaghan and Sri OP Tiwari almost eight years ago now, we did this very ceremony every morning before we began our pranayama and asana practice. I remember the ghee being spread over the flames of the fire and the grains being offered by students into the fire during the meditative chants that were performed by Paul and Tiwariji. The feelings I experienced at the end of our Havan back here in Canada with Chaavi were the same. I felt grounded, connected, soft and aware of something greater than each of us- our communal energy, when we ended the ceremony. It felt like we participated in something which drew up energy from within ourselves and from the one place with which we all exist. Such a peaceful and calming feeling overall. An experience which I highly recommend for yoga practitioners and non-yoga practitioners alike. At the end of the ceremony we were offered to place the ashes of the fire onto our third eye, the forehead as it is a way to connect our divine being. Of course I accepted this offering because, who wouldn’t want to experience that?

      My Personal Deeper Reflections on Yoga

      My reflections upon yoga are echoed with each experience I have had over these past 10+ years that I have been learning and practicing. The practices and the meanings are like a catapult for the mind into places of my being which lay in a sort of coma for much of my teenage to early adult life. As a child, I had no barometer for what was socially accepted and did what I felt was right. I painted my shoes. I participated in the science fair. I sang, danced and created art. I even earned a creative arts award on my grade eight graduation. I accomplished much in dance, I was accepted to a prestigious ballet school and won contests for art at local fairs. I followed my light. I did what I felt was right from within. As a teen, I became consumed by acceptance. There were some other disturbances as well. I turned inward, into my shell. I became insecure about socializing and fitting in. I lost connection with my internal knowing. I felt disconnected. I didn’t feel like I fit in with my peers. I had decorated my locker in grade 9 with a collage of cat pictures I liked. When some peers saw the effort I put into it, they thought it was weird. I was ridiculed by my local dance teacher when I came home from dance school. I didn’t want to pursue it because I wanted so much to be home with my family. I missed them and wanted more than anything to be with them than to follow my dream. My teacher couldn’t relate. I felt alone. I lost my connection, I became obsessed with perfection. I thought that if I did what was expected really well, no one would put me down. I could be invisible. If there was nothing to complain about, how could I be a spotlight? As I moved into adulthood, I was able to sort out many of the feelings I had as a teen. I mean, many kids struggle at this hormonal and changing time in life.

      It was Yoga that really helped me heal from my disconnection. It has helped me to reconnect to that inner voice that I had shut down because it didn’t fit in. You see, yoga doesn’t care if you are fitting in with the trend or what is cool. Yoga is there to help you reconnect with what is important, with what really matters in life. I feel more confident in my own skin now that I ever have as an adult. I am rekindling my own fire with that unstoppable energy that guided me as a child to do what is right for my soul, what is right for me. I once again march to the beat of my own drum and don’t care if it’s not the same beat as anyone else. I am me. I am happy to be me. I connect to me. It is a beautiful feeling. When I think about how many years went by where I was a bit lost, I feel bad, but I don’t dwell on what I can’t change. I move forward and let my light guide me where I need to be. It feels wondrous and I think we can all find that place within ourselves. I wish this for every human being on this planet. I dream of the day where we are all Yoga and we are all truly aware that we are ONE ~ Samadhi.

      LOKAH SAMASTAH SUKHINO BHAVANTU

      Means~ May all beings everywhere be happy and free, and may the thoughts, words, and actions of my own life contribute in some way to that happiness and to that freedom for all.

      Best wishes my beautiful readers,

      Love,

      Lisa xo

       

       

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    • Sankalpa~ Giving Beautiful Meaning to Every Single Day

      Posted at 2:48 am by Lisa K, on November 12, 2017

      What is sankalpa?  It is broken down to mean ~ the highest truth of the heart which is followed above all others. It is an intention that you decide to follow that will serve your highest truth or purpose. Sankalpa is referenced in the Rig Veda which is one of the oldest yogic texts that form the foundation of our philosophical understandings of yoga. I have been to many yoga classes where the instructor will invite students to set an intention for the class. May it be to dedicate it to someone or a feeling inside such as “I am joy” or “I am courageous”. The wonderful thing about sankalpa is that it posits that you already are the intention you wish to fulfill. It is just that we must realize and use our mind to focus on bringing out these qualities within ourselves, to connect within. I find this concept to be innately beautiful. Imagine…all the doubts you have about yourself, the unsure thoughts, the potential harmful self-talk you may have from time to time- become non-existent. There is no place for doubt when we already are what we wish to be.  So confidence inspiring, with such conviction and above all so validating of who we are and what we are capable of doing. I am what I am meant to be. I am capable of fulfilling my dharma or my purpose in this life.  There is no question.

      How does Ashtanga Yoga help us to see our Sankalpa?

      Yoga helps us to tune in, to become aware of the thought processes and internal obstacles that make the awareness of our abilities become obscure. We live in a society ridden with self-doubt and unfulfillable ideals. It is like we all want to be something that we think we are not able to be. There must be some impossible task to create dis-ease and woe in our hearts.  Why???? Why do we want to feel inadequate? Why do we buy in to these ideals which are unattainable, therefore causing a sense of incapability?
      It is only when we are challenged that we can truly call on our innate abilities. They will automatically come to the forefront because we need them. It is not easy to commit yourself to doing a physically challenging practice on a daily basis. Ashtanga calls to us to do this. It asks us to be present, to breathe into difficulty, to find ease in what creates uneasiness. Yin and Yang are called to become one. A synchronicity within our internal controls is the savior to our woes. It is part of our creation. We live. We die. We are part of a cycle of life much greater than our individuality that we never ever become disconnected from. It is the fuel, the breath, the momentum of our existence. Sankalpa. Dharma. Life force. These qualities are one and the same. Ashtanga helps to repeatedly identify the strength and perseverance of what lies within so that our Sankalpa may become clear.

      Sankalpa makes me think about my highest truth and why we exist. What is my purpose?

      It’s a difficult thing to contemplate. What is the purpose of existence if we are merely part of a cycle? Why is sankalpa important? I believe it is a question we can only find the answer to in our own way. For me, I have only glimpsed my truth, most notably it has been in some deep conversations with my grandma that I have found some peace and a little bit of insight. I feel that part of my highest truth is to be of service to make the world a better place. I see this in my Grandma. My grandmother is a very strong woman. Among her impressive qualities are enduring love, she gives of herself freely with no expectation. She is compassionate, so giving of all of herself, her thoughts, her love and her life. I connected with her at a very young age. She made me feel strong, appreciated, capable and most of all, loved. I always felt that she would be there for me, even if I faltered or if there was negativity surrounding me. Her care was and is unconditional to this very day in her 85th year of life. She has discussed death and how life is part of this cycle with me from her perspective. When I hear her speak of it, I feel part of her knowing and understanding that it is just part of what it is to be a human being. Now that fact is mere science, but the understanding of it is a much deeper and darker reality that some priming for is a gift. My granny is a beautiful gift of so many things, I am grateful to be among those blessed to be a part of her family and life.
      You see, I view my Sankalpa as an intention with the undertone of service, of giving. The ultimate gift is to give without expectation. This is what may be the sankalpa of my daily life in little bits each day. I can be giving of my heart, to listen, to be thoughtful, to be supportive, to be kind. Like my grandma.  Think about those little intentions that you can do each day to fulfill your own personal Sankalpa – I am courageous. I am joy. I am forgiveness. I am light. I am giving. We are really all of these things already. Do you know that? Find the beauty within you. It is strong.  Share it with others and relish in the happiness that it gives you to make another feel your love. Do it without expectation. Find your Sankalpa and live it each day. How wonderful is it to be able to live your purpose, your highest truth, in little acts each and every day?

      Best Wishes to you all my friends.  May the new week bring many smiles, laughter and love to you💖

      Lisa Michelle xo

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    • Autumn Equinox: The Change of Season and Yoga

      Posted at 12:13 am by Lisa K, on September 25, 2017

      This year, it hasn’t really felt quite like the entrance into autumn. The weather is more like a beautiful July day. Today we took one of our usual walks down to the dog park and pond near our home. In the months when it is warm enough, we just love going down this path to enjoy nature and the beauty of the earth right next to our bustling subdivision. The swans come in the summer, they are magical creatures. There is a majestic heron who we are lucky enough to witness gracefully floating down into his watery home on many occasions. The ducks, the geese, the beaver, bunnies and the dragon flies are around us when we slowly walk around the loop. Our little quick bunny friend I snapped a picture of was so fast that it came out a bit blurry, lol.

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      This evening was particularly beautiful. I knew that today was the equinox and as we walked, I thought about what that means for us in the months to come. The darkness will come, the cold and a change in our routine in many senses. Apple picking, pumpkin patching and crisp evenings are on the way.

      As an Ashtanga Yoga practitioner, I am keenly aware of the cycle of the moon. We observe the new and full moon and do not practice on these energetically potent days. Tied to the earth in so many obvious and more subtle ways, it is part of the practice to become cognizant of how these cycles affect our bodies in an acute fashion. The daily breath and movement I experience allows for this awareness to grow slowly over time.

      Yoga poses that were easier and more in tune with the vibrations of summer don’t feel quite the same. These are backbends and opening postures. The natural warmth of summer helps muscles to easily warm up and I find my more difficult postures come more readily. Autumn gives way to the strength and inwardness of folding forward and earthy poses like kurmasana and baddha konasana. Though we don’t change what we practice as do the seasons, poses feel different in my body.

      I find that as the cold and dark come, my body feels more stiff. I need to focus more deeply on my breath and creating the internal heat necessary for my practice seems to take longer. When Ashtanga first found me, it was 5 Surya Namaskara a and 5 surya Namaskara b which we practiced before the standing series. Later, it changed to 5 a and 3 b. I find that after the equinox, I generate more adequate heat by doing the 5 a and 5 b. In winter, as a home practitioner, this is what I do much of the time.  I use a heater almost all year round, but I find it necessary as the weather turns cooler. A little added warmer!

      I do an evening practice sometimes, when my day is too busy to find a morning time. This week, I did an evening practice and was disappointed by the lack of evening sun. I had to close my blinds so my neighbours behind me wouldn’t wonder what was going on over here, lol. Because it was a couple of weeks since my last evening practice, it was very noticeable how much had changed in our daylight hours.

      Soon it will be time for pumpkins and Halloween costumes. Every year the changes are more or less the same. I welcome our new autumn season and look forward to the beauty and rhythm of change to come in the months ahead. Best Autumn Equinox and season to all, enjoy this time of earthly change. Winter is coming!

      Love & Light,

      Lisa xo

       

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